Decisions...Decisions...

Today was amazing. God is amazing and I know that He loves me and that I am on the right path. That feels absolutely calming and refreshing to me. Even knowing that I have a path, doesn't tell me or insure that my path will be easy. In fact, if this is the path that God has for me, it is almost guaranteed to be difficult. What God does promise is rest and strength in Him. I need to learn to "train my will". Psalm 43:5 gives a perfect example of the struggle that we as humans have with our souls. We do have the ability to take control of our souls, to direct them, with the help of our savior.
I realized something else today, something that I think the Lord has been trying to show me for a long time now. Something that I don't know that I will be able to fully understand for quite some time. I told someone in my family that I felt something in the depths of my soul months ago. It defied logic and reason. No matter what I have done to move past it, work around it, ignore it, move forward and away from it. It seems counterproductive and "wrong". Walking away from it seems like trying to put on something that doesn't fit. Today was the first time that I felt vindication in both a human and somewhat spiritual form.

Amazing. God is good. God is here.
Always.